Reflecting on my summer in Israel

By Shayna Cairns

(Edmonton) – This past summer, I had the opportunity to travel to Israel on the NCSY TJJ (The Jerusalem Journey) program, an experience that profoundly reshaped my understanding of both me and my heritage. What initially felt like a simple six-week trip quickly evolved into a deeply personal journey marked by spiritual growth, emotional connection, and meaningful self-discovery. Throughout the program, I was consistently challenged to reflect on Israel’s significance, my Jewish identity, and my role within a history that stretches back thousands of years.

From the moment we landed, Israel felt fundamentally different from anywhere I had ever been. There was a powerful energy in the air – a blend of history, faith, and resilience. Walking through the ancient streets of Jerusalem, touching the weathered stones of the Kotel, and learning Torah in the very places where generations before me had stood, transformed Jewish history from something distant into something tangible.

These experiences allowed me to connect to Judaism not only intellectually, but emotionally and spiritually. I began to understand that Judaism is not simply a set of traditions, but a living identity that continues to shape who I am today.

As we traveled across the country, Israel revealed itself in all its complexity and diversity. We explored ancient cities, hiked through natural landscapes, and experienced modern Israeli life. Each location offered a new perspective, helping me appreciate the depth and resilience of the Jewish people. From the spiritual atmosphere of Tzfat to the vibrant energy of Tel Aviv, I saw how Israel seamlessly blends past and present. This contrast deepened my understanding of how Jewish history continues to influence contemporary Jewish life.

One of the most impactful aspects of the TJJ program was the learning. The rabbis and madrichim did more than present information – they encouraged us to question, reflect, and engage critically with our beliefs. Through meaningful discussions and thought-provoking classes, I was challenged to think about what Judaism means to me personally and why it remains relevant in my life. This process helped me take ownership of my Jewish identity and pushed me to grow both intellectually and spiritually.

Equally significant were the relationships I formed throughout the summer. Spending six weeks living, traveling, and learning together created strong bonds built on shared experiences and mutual growth. Being surrounded by peers who were also exploring their identities fostered a sense of community and belonging. These friendships provided support, perspective, and encouragement, making the journey even more meaningful.

By the end of the program, it was clear that I was returning home changed. I gained a stronger connection to Israel, a deeper appreciation for my heritage, and a clearer understanding of my values and goals. The NCSY TJJ trip was not simply a summer experience; it was a turning point that influenced how I see myself and my place in the world.

In reflection, this journey continues to shape my perspective long after it ended. Israel is no longer just a place I visited, but a part of my identity that will continue to guide my personal and spiritual growth.

 This trip was made possible thanks to an H.A. and I.R. Friedman Scholarship grant through the Edmonton Talmud Torah Society. Anyone wishing to inquire about this grant can contact nataliesoroka@talmudtorahsociety.com